steamboatt in our housee

we just decided to make a steamboat in our hostel since no one inside here except 5 of us.

we went tesco by the taxi just to buy the ingredient for tonight our steamboatt~
actually we should go earlier but we went afternoon.
 our planned 3-5pm to gym ,but failed.

we lend the steamboat pot with our friend's superman XD
he got a special name here .

our steamboat no vegetables here,i think we forgot to buy vegetable XD

after our steamboat cleanning timee~

 this is ..the last two fish ball left for superman,cause he asked us to keep some for him XD
some soup here too ,we got lots of mushroom
i dont know why we bought so much,and almost everything in mushroom...


so winddyy tonight,at the lakeside.
we went for a walk after the dinner,we just simply be a light bulb of couples at the lakeside
so windy and..some kind of feeling
......

faster get back hostel much better XD

look at thiss!! my tvxq shocks!

i'm so proud with it,and my sister bought for me all of their version

so excited when i get them! XD

 

Crockcroach

oh crockcroach,i scare crockcroach without any reason

and i just saw it twice in a week
gosh

everytime i saw it,it gave me a big surprise
it's like..suddenly come in .
dont know how it's appear.

everytime it appear,i will just scream.
uncontrollable.

XinNing will just like hero,catch the crockcroach and make it die

gosh,horriblleee!!

my mom just laughed at me,because of this.

it's that very funny that ..scare crockcroach?

i will only scream when i saw it.or resect!

Fridayyy

Family came here today,i just a little bit over excited? i think

since thursday night,we went to mamak stall ,i'm just so high
even i just got myself a normal teh tarik.

talking all some wordssss..
something going wrong with me,

i got class 9am friday,and the only class i got it
it's very proud when telling others group people about..i got no class later
and you guys got it.XXD

it's kinda fun actually,they just like..urgh i hate friday
they gonna stay till 6pm ,and i going back 11am

it's sooo different.

went friend's house,going update everything in phone
she got wifi,not under danish.
ennvvvyyy arrrrr...

the internet speed is much moreeee better than mine
unfortunately,i just downloaded 52% and family arrivee!

gotta rush back with riding my bicycle..
lucky her house not so far from mine ,or not i going exhausted

they brought lot of things for me,but dont have table lamp.
xin ning sleep so early and i cant do anythign after she slept

pity me,cant do tutorial ...XD
i'm the kind of person who like to do the works in the midnight
ahem,i not an owl or..panda?.

daddy bought me a table lamp finally,thank you daddyyy!!! haahah

my family brought lots of food,and i going finished it all.
my stomach [kembang] after i finish the food,
even hot dog,bak chang,jelly,huat kuih.

all my favourite it's here XD

they going home 6pm,it's the sad moment when i just see them going back..

hmm i started to miss my mom ,after a few hours
my family,my pets

i saw the video clips that sister recorded for me my pets
...i wish to rub belly them!.

kinda emo today,i also dont know why
maybe just over-high yesterday and morning
that makes me sooo soo soo emo at the night

the songs made my eyes goes wet,and drop some tears because of miss my family,a little bit homesick.
maybe it's not the music ..just my mood so low.

 it's very happy when family coming over here,but it's very sad when they leaving too...

....
my parents saw me and just said..

my skin going healthier instead of darker,is that a way of comforting me?hahaha
and a little thinner,so sad.
just a little bit..i should take dinner de!

say goodbye to may

goodbyyeee May!
and heello june

i remember i came here 18th may
now it's june already
so fast uh,i miss my home

a little bit homesick here
i'm kinda tired of everyday eating those..delivery
but i'm still like to cycling around

dont ask my hobby after i came here,
all my answer just, i will cycling every 6pm if i can.

may of 2012,i left my home,my family,my puppies,
urgh,i miss them so much.
getting an independant ..life after all.
>.<!
i almost eveyrday went bicycle shop in may.
i just hoping i will not visit the shop frequently in june.

31st may ,the weather in kampar it's really unpredictable
it's sunny afternoon and suddenly thunder storm
i finished my class 1pm but i going hostel 4pm
and that time it started to rain.

jiawen kinda unlucky ,parked at the chaining zone
and she got fined rm5,but xin ning paid for her first.
cause she got her class end 6pm
our campus save and security department closed 5:30pm
poor little jiawen.

we like having a cup of tea inside the office while waiting the rain stop

seriously,i hate my bicycle
it likes to come out some..out of my expectation accident

if i take all the money of maintainance,i think i can buy a new bicycle

almost spent all my money

before 10th of june ,i have to pay my rental first
or not,they going have a call to my parents already
oh my god!

it's very lol.
until now,i dont know how much should i take it as my cash and others save in the card.
i going ask my parents later.



woolala, actually my parents coming today but suddenly cancelled
cause closing date.*arghh..i forgot already!

by the way,at least my babysitter coming over here to visit me
very excited. XD
my mom gave those things that she's going give me to jiawen's mother
cause...jiawen have a very blessful family.
her family coming over her visit her again,..

 anyway,my parents coming next week! XD

oh yeah,june.
going to our 2nd week already
omg,tutorial class start next week!
i dont want it >.<
i have to go back at 6pm everyday!.
except friday 11am

dont envy me,because of friday i can go back earlier without any tutorial after 11am.
 :P

A little bit unluckkyy day

it's really really a little bit unlucky for me today

i had my class at 8am and my bicycle having some problem on the half way going campus
i'm forced to walk to zone D park my bicycle and walk to class
gosh,i dont know why my bicycle have so much problem
maybe it just too long never ride it like now?..
i think so

early in the morning and i already sweat like under the hot sun in 12pm
entering the class,so damn cold.
i just keep on wear my jacket and take off because behind my shirt was wet

i sent lot Sos,to my friends,senior
hoping someone end their class 10am like me.but they ended 12pm.

my mom just called my cousin and actually,i dont even recognize him anymore
we dont even talk.how i gonna know how is he looks like.


i dont know where am i,and finally i met him there
he just called up his friend that passer by to help
his friend fixed already but after he walked away,the bicycle still cant ride
maybe my bicycle dont like me uh,and dont want me to ride it .

actually he got his class 10am but he help me until 10:30am,his friend brought me back hostel ,and my bicycle stay at the zone D.
he brought to repair it and return me around evening.

feel really thankful to him actually,cause we just cousin and not so close
lucky he's there,or not i'm going walk through tar college again then to the bicycle shop again

almost a week,i appear at the bicycle shop.>.<

i just hope,bicycle please dont so problem anymore ,i am rush to school everyday
i dont want to call anybody else at same problem again.

by the way,my cousin riding the motorcycle while bring together my bicycle
and he fell down .
really really felt so sorry to him,>.<

anyway,wednesday again pasar malam!oh yeah~
we  going there evening,and we dont bring umbrella
all of us were so confident that it wont rain tonight
suddenly lighting,..then some drops of rain
gods,everyone running like hell,while our hand are full with the food
and the first time i felt lucky i stayin in 1412
cause it's quite near to pasar malam even new town

we just get a little bit wet,kinda fun
so exciting.
i never experience this before,now i know already
everytime going to pasar malam
bring along umbrella,just ignored who laughing at you sunny day and bring umbrella
cause in kampar,you couldnt know when is raining at all

so full having the japanese vegetable something
very delicious,and maybe healthy
cause all it's vegetable only

 
huuu..just please tomorrow dont happen the same thing again.>><!

money flewww~

i just found out after i came kampar,i always updated my blog
i have lots of thing to write down here

i miss my family,
i am in kampar a week now
slowly will turn out to a month,yearsss

i just realised i was so blissful when i'm with family together
especially went to shopping mall
of course,this is not the main point with family
just i realised this when i'm in tesco alone

when i'm with my family
i just turn here and there,look at anything i want

just take without hesitated,i never ever let junk food walkthrough me
 or go out have a dinner
never think about what is the price ,is it okay or else

but now,i cant do like that anymore
i went tesco and look at those junk that i love
and i walk away
i just feel maybe i shouldnt waste so much money on those food that cant fill my stomach,instead.

at the end,i just empty hand going back my hostel with my sister's friend
yuxiu,and her friends

the first time i went mcD today,and having breakfast there
i forgot today was the weekend,the price is much higher than week day
i almost spend all my badjet just for the breakfast

the breakfast is like nothing for me anymore after i walk back with bicycle from campus to hostel again.
i just skipped my lunch cause the breakfast was too expensive for meeee alone


argh..my money flew away....

你以为东方神起..

F：百度转发

我不知道是不是大部分人都和我有一样的经历
“你的屏幕上是东方神起吗？”
“是啊，没错。”
“啊，你也哈韩啊！我也是！”
“不，没有，我不哈韩，我只喜欢东方神起。”
“噢噢噢，我以前也喜欢过东方神起，现在喜欢XXXXX.”
“呵呵。”
突然就没有了继续对话的欲望，那么东方神起对于你来说到底算什么呢？

 东方神起对于整个韩国乐坛又算什么？
我不喜欢韩饭的很重要一点就是她们太善变，新团轮流出，然后你突然发现你关注很久一个NAVER
BLOG上不再出现东方神起的身影而变成了男朋友或者血型团无限团。
你以为东方神起是什么。
东方神起绝对不是韩流乐坛一闪而过瞬间耀眼却永久沉沦的流星。
东方神起是闪耀在北方天空千年的美丽星座。

 我的郑允浩，隐忍而真诚，他是会对警方说放过向他投毒的孩子因为想到了自己的妹妹的人。
我的金在中，坚强而坦率，他是明知道转着眼珠不好看却依然想努力看清楚台下每一个歌迷的人。
我的朴有天，多情而温暖，他是会因为感动哭得像个孩子却在最失落的时候忍着眼泪安慰弟弟的人。
我的金俊秀，单纯而刻苦，他是哪怕经历七年练习生生涯依然带着自己的梦想坚定地走下去的人。
我的沈昌珉，谦虚而成熟，他是会告诉饭们要努力做好自己的本职读书工作然后再喜欢自己的人。
所以你尽可以发挥一切功力来挖苦东方神起的现状。
所以你尽可以动用一切权利来抹杀东方神起的努力。
所以你尽可以穷极一切心思来利用东方神起的地位。
可东方神起始终都在那里，站在这样一个高度，你仰望，却永不企及

 在日本开一场拼盘，却阻止BIGEAST举起红色荧光棒。
在韩国卖一张专辑，却阻止他们站上舞台为自己打歌。
在日本举行颁奖礼，却连入围资格都不给东方神起。
在韩国当形象大使，却在达到目的之后被一脚踢开。
而这就是你们对待自己的真真正正的招牌的态度。
东方神起是前辈，不是绊脚石。
东方神起是前辈，不是垫脚石。
若你不能成功，不是东方神起挡了你的道。
若你想成功，不是东方神起有义务帮你。
他们在日本摸爬滚打的时候你在哪里？你在韩国当你的韩流star亚洲天团。
他们被日语逼到给乌鸦打电话的时候你在哪里？
你在韩国泡吧喝酒其乐无穷。
他们站在学校礼堂拿着有线麦唱歌的时候你在哪里？
你在韩国开con赚钱不亦乐
 而如今他们替你们打开了日本市场让排外的日本人接受了韩流却被你们一脚踢开。
我的爱豆辛辛苦苦爬上霓虹乐坛的巅峰，不是为了给你当垫脚石的。
所以其实我万分期待阪蛋的金唱片，我只是很好奇没有东方神起的巨蛋会怎样。
我的爱豆的确现在是3+2，的确苦苦支撑，的确每一步都很艰难。
可是你别忘了我的爱豆两个人可以让拼盘变成专场。
可是你别忘了我的爱豆不能打歌宣传依然专辑脱销。
所以请问你到底在得意些什么？
你在嘲笑的是你永远达不到的高度。
你在讽刺的是你永远得不到的荣耀。
而今，东方神起五人出道8周年了。
宝剑锋自磨砺出这句话是高中作文的绝杀句而今天我又要再用一次。
这八年摸爬滚打我的爱豆经历了多少看透了多少。
八年时间把我爱豆的棱角磨平却更加锋芒毕露。
我的爱豆站在那里就是气场，这种气场并不是你搞笑一下积攒点人气就能有的。
我常常在想东方神起你快点回来，不为别的，就为给别人看一看什么才叫神之子。
并不是嘴上喊几句最高就真的天下无敌，并不是扭几下就叫舞王找几个一起唱歌就叫和声。
八周年日志被我写得这么酸也算是我的本事。
其实我叨叨这么多也就是一句话——
东方神起你别碰，因为你碰不起。
我不知道预感这种东西是不是真的存在，但是东方神起会回来的，等着吧。
无论你对他们的回归是抱着怎样的心态，等着吧。
原作者我并不知道是谁。只是怀着一样的心情，等待着东方神起回来。这种心情想和你们分享
所有期待东方神起回归的人，我们都懂，他们不会辜负我们的期待
所有嘲笑过他们、讽刺过他们、利用过他们、伤害过他们的人，你们等着。。。

ice breaking dayy

i'm in the 16 group,
when i in the group ,i just feel,gosh kill me please
my group mates they look..kinda shy to everyone?
i feel like that,and if there is a prize about the most quiet,
i think we will get it

when choosing leader,we just look at each other
and make no sound at all
when choosing volunteer same too

starting la,i think

when we started the games,our groupmate slowly talk to each other
make some friends and else

i thought all boys are like to make noisy around
maybe in kampar not like that.
but in alor star almost every camp,i attended they do make lots of noise
until the helper will ask to be quiet a little bit

i am totally different groups with my cha mou
xin ning jia wen together without me
how jealoussss am i!!

it quite good also not so bad
just change mind thinking :P

i met some new friends too,
i like talk to kelly,she's active person
and sporting i think..

just running here and there
and we got running man too!
i just run and get caught,how stupid me

there are some international student i think,aww
i wish to be friend with them actually
but i dont know how to start and so shyyyy

when i just decide want to talk to them,they gone
so sad,hmmm..

by the way,i got the certificate of participant
kinda excited to get that actually

i like the activities today

this is my cert..


by the way,today i was cycling all alone at the lakeside ,cause xinning and jiawen they slept and i didnt wake them up 6pm

first time ,i was cyclying there alone,and going everywhere that i like to turn
just simply turn here and turn there.

now,just 8 something but i really so sleepy dy
i didnt take a nap at the evening,i dont want to like an owl in the midnight ..

arhh..sleeppyy

boringg talk

the most boring talk,i ever met in this orientation i think
that something called mass call

they invited utar president
he got really a long long name,which i cant remmeber at all

i'm so so so glad,i'm just foundation student
just wonder why everytime we look at the scedule ,it's in herritage hall
but end up,in Block I

we just watching the video,thanks god
kinda enjoy it actually,we sleep and just do whatever we like
and they dont know about it

when they talked about history,gosh kill me
almost sleep,and..i curi curi slept jor
terjatuh somemore ...arr embarrassing

i hate it when open up the song,and i forced to slow down the volume
because even my friend can heard my song

next year,if im going proceed to degree
i swear i will never attend the orientation


those seniors sharing their experience with us when there happen some technical problem
much much better than the talks
hahaha

today faculty talk started 10am and we go back at 4pm
we were sitting at the chair and didnt move at all
listen to the briefing,
actually kinda interesting ,the talk today.

okay that is the view when we cyclying around the lake 6-7pm
kinda like there,almost everyday i will be there :P

my friend just learn bicycle,finally we can go out together with bicycle
instead of walk here and there
kinda tired actually

hu..class started 28th may
i dont what things should i bring
different class with friend,so sad.

even tutorial group too.

>.<! it's a hard time for me starting i guess..

just hope everything will be alright

tomorrow ice breaking!oh yea
finally no talks anymore

done it.haha

7:30am start dy.@.@ so early geh..

timetable

finally,i knew my timetable and it's very hurt meee
i knew my timetable through that campus tour
they really taught me a lot and more understand my new campus
it's really feel much better

i remember last time,i go in that campus
and think Gosh,this is so so so big
how i gonna walk through and know these all buildings are

and today i did it
we use our leg instead of bicycle ,walk all 11 blocks in the campus

and in the morning we chase the bus
cause it's late

waiting for the second bus,it takes time
and we need to rush for the seat

we were the first bus stop and have to stop i think 5 others stop
we just sit 3 person in 2 seat,really pity those have to stand
it's really kill me,i rather bicycle there seriously

i dont like to wait the bus while i m going and back
it's feel like i have to always rush rush rush
running here and running there
gosh,i'm not in that variety show like in korea, running man
but i do love watch that show :P

tomorrow night going for the first pasar malam in kampar kinda exciting
hehehe,and the church activity
i dont really understand about it.

by the way,because of the food in kampar is too big for our tummy
me and xin ning decided to share that food,everything share
we can save up the cost at the same time,we dont waste that food
or we eat too much

seriously i am soo worry about ..eatting too much and getting fatter and fatter
so scare when my family coming here and they said,sand..you pong jor..

gosh i will go jump that drainn!

i went to bicycle shop for 4days,and we just stay here 4 days.
we went the shop EVERYDAY
and everyday different problem,i dont want to go anymore
i waste lots of money because of my bicycle

i just knew some new friend over here,from JB,Taiping,Penang,Sp.

actually we are housemate,we love gather at first floor which is the dining infront my room

we used to get our dinner there,and chit chat this and that,almost everything
kinda like partying XD

gotta sleep now,tomorrow 7 o'clock time to wake up
so so so tired,going to run run run to bus stop again

it's really different lifestyle here with my hometown

in hometown,my transportation is the car only
and here,i have chase the bus,ride the bicycle

first day of O'week

Orientation = O week
i just learn it from my friend.it just means shortcut :P

there lots of first time actually,
first time,i wait the bus at the bus stop
first time i wait around 1 hour
gosh,i found out i kinda patient person uh.
hahaha

bus stopp in westlake

the first bus stop let me wait around 1 hours there





and then went to register,just awhile
we walked back,gosh on the half way we stop the bus
arghh leg pain arrr

just having lunch in room
i spent too much money for maintainance my bicycle
i watch my money flew away
 T.T

i admit i'm short,and i got a bicycle which i need taller just can ride !
shit,im 18.>.<!
xin ning taught me how to ride the bicycle which is taller than me
i got it but dont know how to stop.
ah so embarrassing.18 years old still need to teach to ride bicycle.

>.<!


by the way, we met our housemate and then
we  taught that friend cycling at the night gosh
and fit it 2 person in a bicycle

is kinda fun acctually,at the night we dont have any entertainment here

just watching movies then sleep

i just felt,my bed soo comfortable
and i dont want to wake up anymoreee
i want sleep sleep sleep!

my independant day!

i just moved in this hostel yesterday,18/5/12
it's really a hard time to leave my parents,and they left here around 8pm.
after my dinner.
first time,i just waving my hand to them,watching they slowly move out my sight..
i didnt cry,but almost

i have to do everything myself,no more mom,dad,sis beside me.
i miss my puppy.aww..dont know are they waiting me to come home..
i told them before i left my home..

wake up in the early morning,for me.9am
and we decided to ride bicycle to tesco.,firs time
i ride so far,almost at noon that time with xinning and jiawen
god,jiawen sunburn because of this,seriously,
felt guilty to her.
she just accompany us go,and she got sunburn but we didnt.
mou mou soorry :(

kampar weather is so damn hot
almost everytime i go out,and come back i must take a shower
and my hair is wet from inside.

even night,i dont have to put on my blanket
it just will made me even hootter

god,xinning saw my sleeping style ,and she laughed at me
i swear i want to wake up even earlier than her!!!

maybe it's the bed,enviroment ..i dont really have a good sleep yesterday.
i miss my bed,my blanket,my room.

oh yea,yesterday i watched titanic till i slept,ah so embarrassing !
housemate are with me that time.goshhh...not gonna repeat again this time'
later gooing watch again..

parents talk me several time,seems like they really worry about me..
i think i will be alright ,i think.
today just first day,i spend almost rm100 for things.
TT

不舍

我得到了自己想要的未来,自己独立的时间了,可为什么我却充满不舍
一刻都不想离开家里了..

望着自己的屋子,好像在想些东西,可是脑袋却空空的

这一天终于到了,我兴奋不起来
似乎很烦恼某些事,可是连我自己都不知道..

怎么办？我真的舍不得..
怎么会这样？..

是我自己的选择,是我自己要去别州读书
是我自己要学着独立生活

可是当要离开时,真的真的很舍不得

...

真的不会形容现在的复杂心情.

幸福· ^^

我很幸福，因为身边围绕着爱我的人..
近期来我才发觉,之前的我真的身在福中不知福
有着两对爱我的父母亲,不奇怪啦,我叫我的保姆-妈妈的
她就好像我的第二个母亲.
自从选择要去金宝后,看见他们总是为我忙进忙出
有空坐下后就会告诉我,别乱乱参人,别轻易相信人,警戒心要高一点，什么什么的
虽然嗯..有点唠叨的说，但是我感觉到的是他们对我的关怀
怎么那么迟钝到现在才发觉,还有3天..
可以享受家人在身边的..3天
突然觉得 5月18号，来得好快 好像坐rocket酱..

买了好多好多东西,衣服啊日常用品啊 一大堆
最可怕的是我差不多要搬整个家去了。
其实看着父母为我这么忙，心里真的很感动也很不舍..

其实又不是很远..近近而已啦
保姆今天特地煮了我最爱的tomato鱼XD，还有啊发糕啊，一大堆
不知道要怎样表达出来那个感动,我不知道该怎么回报
可是一定会回报的啦，我才不会那么忘恩负义

姐姐啊，平时那么厉害的骂我
头骂到脚，前骂后也骂，一直骂骂
可是因为差不多要去金宝了，以后她就独生女一样
没人跟她耍耍嘴了，吵吵架。
她告诉我她一定会想我的,对啊,我也一定会想她的
我姐很有当厨师的潜能，一整天读完书后就是好像都在研究食谱了
最好怕她做不成功,因为不成功也得吃进去
可是多数都是很好吃的
一定会想她的,每天有事没事看见我就是问我吃了没有..
如果没有就要中了。
去到那边不知道会不会想念她的食物多过她的人啊？？哈哈
没有在我肚子饿的时候,嘴里说着懒惰出去懒惰煮菜，可是手就在那边准备食材了
 想我时不要哭啊,不然我不用睡觉了

其实最舍不得的是我妈咪了,我妈咪啊可是很出名的口是心非，刀子口豆腐心
向她埋怨时她就会骂骂骂骂骂，除了骂还是骂
可是过一下就会教我看开点啦,什么什么的
最让我心疼的地方就是妈咪做事不管辛苦还是容易她从来就不会要求我们来帮她的
明明做工回来那么累了，为什么还要去逞强，不是有我们吗
女儿是来做么的..
还有就是生病时最好别靠近我妈咪，不然啊会变水桶的
一天到晚都喝水还有最可怕的是一边骂一边给水喝
她早已算好我们不敢拒绝了吧..
骂是骂，回来了还会特地煮凉茶给我们
真的害怕以后去了金宝，你做工回来还要一个人去洗屋外的地上
那个时候会想我吧？每次都很乱绕着你
妈咪最舍不得我了，不是自恋啦
是因为她很有信心的知道我开始一定很辛苦的，因为根本没独立过
凡是有第一次嘛~
而且她很怕我撑不下后还死硬撑的，就因为我告诉他
我选择了那里，就算再辛苦我不会回来，因为我要对自己的选择负责任
自从告诉她后，一直一直都在劝我别不能读了硬硬读..
妈咪啊，相信我啦，别人能的我也一定能

（有点害怕的说)..

daddy 啊,最让我担心了
我很多性格跟到他,不是好的..
都是那些..每天被姐姐说的clumsy啦，忘记这个那个啦,不然就是做东西太冲动,没头没尾。
其实我们并没有那样吧..是有一点,就那么一点啦
没头没尾也并不是完全不好的事..
重点不是在头也不是在尾,在中间嘛
抓住重点而已。
我daddy，最厉害的就是看玩笑
他的玩笑很奇特,都是奇奇怪怪的
我多数都会笑到肚子痛,而且妈咪一直说我肥就是笑太多进风膨胀的..
我家人都个自己的语言,那语言别人根本不会懂的
因为都是话中有话,每次都是weird weird 的
 daddy很少发脾气,根本就是没发过的
好像..不曾爆发的..火山
每次只要daddy在,不管什么事我们都不怕的
因为有他在，daddy总是给我们很大的安全感,不曾离去的..那个感觉
还有啊
自小他就叫我们要尊重人权,每人都要自己选择的权利
不然就是教我们一些些的法律
他最喜欢就是在半夜读报纸,因为白天太忙了没时间让他静一静的读报纸
读完报纸后，他会告诉我们最新消息,
其实我们根本不用看新闻的，有他在，新闻一大堆
知识也很广,..
 daddy，一直都很想要给我们什么都是最好的,小时候我们要什么就拿什么
根本不用多想,因为他不想我们像报纸上的被东西诱惑而被绑架什么的
其实我们并不是需要那么多物质上的东西,因为给了我们太多
会让我们不去珍惜我们所拥有的
daddy也不曾要求我们想神童那样,科科拿最好，他只要求我们平庸就好无需太好
小时候不曾补习,成绩也平平,不是太好也没太烂,可是过得很开心
他给了我们最最最美好的童年
我最爱听 他的辉煌故事听了又听,其实他不知道重点不是他的故事 而是看到他在说他的故事时他的心情, 他的语气,他的表情
他很开心当他说他的故事..他多么高兴啊..


我真的真的很幸福.
我爱你们,daddy,妈咪,姐姐，妈妈，爸爸

start packing thingss

i think i bought almost everything.except food.

i started pack my clothes , and i pick this shirt that shirt
and put into my bag,it boom out my bag

and i realize i took almost all my wadrobe clothes into my bag
gosh, should i bring so many clothes there?

i only wash once a week,means i have to prepare minimum 10 clothes?
 feeling so hard to pack things,i cant leave my tvxq album here
i might miss to watch that album

but if i bring it there,where should i put?

hmm,only the clothes i got 2 boxes dy.

i really cant imagine how many boxes will i bring to kampar on this friday

i didnt even pack my bags,shoes,and those shampoo
and and the laptop,book,ironer,hanger..


i worry i might bring too much and be like a freak at there

at the same time,i scare forgot bring something.
and i have to come back then go back again..

i heard some rumours that kampar line isn't so good as i know
i started worry now,if i cant online
how i get to know lastest news of tvxq? Pps T.T

i know sure i will miss my wireless,it is so smooth and cool.i think it will better than the line in kampar.

everyone met me,and asked me where to go.when they heard utar.
they will start advise me for must study hard there,becareful,the exam is hard to get pass...

btw it's mothers' day today,we didnt celebrate anything
and my mom went bed so early,9pm she slept...

lucky i already told her i love her before she went sleep :P

hoping i wont forgot anything to bring ...

and
happy mothers' day <3

PLKN ..

plkn started today i think..er 2nd batch and i m in the 3rd,

anyway,my best friend is in 2nd batch ,and she is going there.
*so sad,we should skyype first before you left me here,YEW IVY!

i gona miss you so so much,3 months
gosh,it so damn long.

even i tag you in facebook and you will no more reply my post anymore
cause you are in plkn having a great experience there,

argh,im just..so jealous of you are in 2nd batch..
but nevermind,i think i will attend it after school,i guess.

there no more cancell because of education.

ivy,what if i miss to see you? you muust come out in my dream!
i just hang out one time only,the bowling ....

remember when we were skyping ,and our favourite things to do??
take the picture,talks about non-sense all the time.
 or you do your things,and i doing mine. but the phone is On.

we should watch scream4 and final destination together ,because until today i never watch it!

our records,2 hours..and something bla..

come back and we broke the record again.

anyway, enjoy the life in plkn,cause you gonna miss it when you come back
 remember story me about your life there..

jiayou!!

regret didnt skype you yesterday.when i was online,you were offline.
...

i wish to see you online skype leh....it will happen but its after 3 months jor...

我在想..

其实我一直都在想..我这么做是对的吗？
我的选择是正确的吗？..

妈妈，我又让你失望了吗？..
每次我告诉你我要去外州读书时,你都会告诉我..
sand,..妈咪只有两个女儿..
明知道你舍不得..可是却做了这个决定..
让你担心,左右为难..

我在想，我如果你不让我去..是怕我会失望吧..
可是让我去又让你成天都在担心我..

突然觉得自己好自私..只想着我自己将会怎样怎样..却忘了我的家人，会不停的担心我..

虽然你不曾说过你会担心，而且每次都刀子口豆腐心..明明就是担心却说不关我的死活
之后又一直叫我以后妈咪不在你身边了不可以这样，那样。要靠自己..
妈妈总是最了解我..

我最记得，也最感动的你告诉我
如果我不好好照顾自己,每天想着不吃这个那个,为了减肥..你会去到金宝带我回来..
就算浪费掉那些钱你也甘愿..只是要我健康..

妈妈..我该怎么做..

我做对了吗？..
我只是想要以后你会为我而骄傲..

我只是知道..就算这路有多么的坎坷我也会走下去的..
因为我必须为我自己的选择负责任..

我不知道会怎样，当18号来临时..
我不知道会以怎样的心情看着你们离开..

我只希望，全家人健健康康的，生意也顺顺利利的..
还有，如果生病了去看医生..不要每次生病了都说没事的..

我真的很怕..
我很胆小，成天都胡思乱想..
想这个想那个然后在那边流泪担心..

或许在别人眼里，觉得我很奇怪吧..
金宝离吉打才3个小时就到了..
干嘛没事哭得死去活来..
我也不想这样的..一想到要离开我们的家..家人,..眼泪自己跑出来的..
真的控制不了..

我真的很爱我的家人..我离不开任何一个..
这个决定是对的吗？..

我很奇怪吧.. 
明明可以选择槟城的，不必离开那么远..可是我却不想读在那里..
我疯了不成..
其实妈咪你们不知道..不是我想离开那么远，只是那里的环境让我害怕..
我害怕自己变坏了，却不知悔改..我知道你们都说不会..但未来我并不知道会怎样的..
我清楚自己是很容易被感染的,我不懂得拒绝..也不会说出好听的理由..
每次拒绝的理由都很没头没尾..可是我真的不会..

我真的很害怕我想象到的事情都发生..我害怕我忘了去槟城读书的目的,.我害怕我变得好玩而忽略功课..
那里诱惑多，我真的受不了的..

对不起..我不是故意要离开那么远..我不是故意要让你们担心我..
我只是想要到一个能让我好好专心的地方..
我只是想要学习独立..

我明知道你很不放心我..才18岁.怎么放心得了呢..
我想让你知道，我长大了,在你们身边我永远独立不了..
看见你们我会忍不住撒娇..做出一些孩子气事情..
就连要点餐也要你们帮我点..

妈妈..真的对不起..

Oopss ! it's May!

aww..it makes me so nervous watching 18th of may coming nearer and nearer

im in totally complicated mood,
sometimes i am really excited to going there,have a college life.
but,when i think of got to leave my family so far away

i always watching my parents and sister,they keep on talking about
when i'm in kampar,take good care myself and lots thing

i have a very small family,just 4 of us
daddy,mummy,sister,me.
since 2008,we got new members ..our dogs.
they are my family too..

i think of..whenever we go,we used to go whole family
we never separated.

and this time,is really going out of here.

18th may,so fast.

more 18 days and i will be in kampar

i still can lunch with my family,but not dinner anymore.
they need to get back alor star ,and tomorrow need work.

seriously,i feeling so guilty to my parents.
im sorry to choosen kampar as the place i want to further my studies.
but i really cant fit in penang Tar college.,i cant stay under that enviroment

it makes me feel so..uncomfortable.

maybe ,..i shouldnt visit kampar utar.
so that i can force myself to study in tar college..
i think..

labour day! ^^
finally we can rest in our home,making some home cook.
oh,my father and sister like to cook ,*i really wonder why i dont like it at all...
my sister likes to create out something special,and only my sister recipe.

now,i really enjoy the moment with them..
and appreciate it much.

the first time uh,gotta leave so far.
it['s not million miles away but it is very far to me.

everytime im trying to pack my things,i looking at my books.
and think..
should i bring all of them?
gosh,i need a new rack for those books!.

but if i didnt bring them,then i have nothing to do ..

anyway,happy labour day!
gonna enjoy the times with family!<3

preparation to kampar.

is that too early to prepare everything to kampar?
and should i bring whole room things go there?i just worry there might no place to fit in...

i gotta bring this that and everything in rooms!

actually,i dont excited to there and kinda worry about the life in kampar..
i read lot peoples blog and hesitated .
it seems like so hard to study there,and it's cost everything.
i must hard working from the first day then,it's not enjoying anymore .

i live with xin-ning right now,we stay in a room.
gonna be great right?i hope so.
i will learn to tolerate ,and learn to be independent...
hope we will get along well at there.

huu..i feel so sad to leave family actually..

i really appreciate all the times with them now.
suddenly i feel 18 years,are so SHORT!
or maybe i dont even appreciate and think about it last time..

i look at family,my puppies

i cant hug my parents,i cant play with my puppiees..
i cant even touch them

i must take a photo to see them if i miss them.
some people suggest skype
yes,i know skype but my parents are tired after work
i dont think they still have the time to online like i do.

maybe i only can listen to their voice..

now,i feel so great when my mum was nagging at me.
i know she care for me,..

once i go there ,no more staying in my personal room,with air-cond in
no more people will nag at me,shout me,scold me.

hu...jiayou sandy.

gonna be a hardtime in the first time ,i guess.

i scare i will home-sick.
my dad told me,if scare home-sick then dont go .stay here and for sure i wont home sick cause i am at my home.

my mom told me,if i didnt take care myself well,and sick here and there.she will bring me home and forgot about the fees. so i better take good care myself uh.haha. i almost cried when i heard this.

my sister told me.,when i coming back here remember tell her. cause she need times to prepare my favourite food..

i look at my puppies,and feel wow 2 years so fast,i remember when my dogs came my house,he is a real puppy.

so small,and playful. he trick me always,playing around.now gonna leave him :'(

i got another dogs found at outside after his owner throw him away a year.
he 's not strange dog.
it's my dog,my baby.

he likes sleep ,and always.
he protect me,and my family.
everytime we went for a walk,he used to walk infront of me.and i afraid if he is injured when fighting with dogs,so i get him up and bring him home.

i like to touch their fur,my dogs..

jiayou sandy.

Rented double room

wake up in the early morning 5am Again!
we going to kampar today, for rent a room .

i thought i will take a single room,cause i need lots privacy.
sometimes,alone is much better.just sometimes

we need three single rooms, in second floor starting.
and at last it turn out to be 2 double room.

me and xin ning stay in a room, and jovelle gonna live with somebody else that she doesnt know.
it should be we dont know who is going to stay with her.

it's sooo tired, sitting in the car for almost 4 hours this time

we finish everything at lunch time,and after we finish the rooms thing,we seperated.

i went to tesco,having lunch at sushi king,
gosh i dont know how long never go there since i know sakae.

i'm glad that at last we take double rooms,i can see how much happy my dad when i took double room
yeah,it's much lighter little bit..
i will try to save up all money i've got dont worry mum.
my mum so worry me,keep me telling me this and that,dont waste things ..
and almost everything she talk about there.

i know my parents was trying convince me to penang,but i'm really sorry dad,mum..
i really feel so guilty..,i couldn't make it at last..

feeling so heart pain when parents trying to fulfill my wishes.,i can see how much tired they were,
driving for almost 12hours today,never stop.
going to kampar,is a good place to study but isnt good place to let me meet my parents .

my hometown so far away,i dont want them come here and back wasting for almost 6 hours just to see me.
....gotta leave alor star....

my mom asked me to come back when it is semester break only,..but what if i miss them?...

i never leave my family so far away,and it's going to be 4 years ..
 i dont know what should i do  ..

now all i know it just appreciate all the time with themm..every single moment,

4 years, so long..

it's a good start for me to independent .......

I'm done.

it's really tired for everyday have to think about where should i go.
and when i made up my mind,
parents dont think about it,just keep on and keep on tell me form 6 form 6 form6
then ask me go think about it AGAIN!

it's happen EVERYNIGHT!

i hate it! i'm done with it!

it's torturing my mind,i'm tired of thinking it again and
i hate change when i made up my mind.


if parents never want to let me go ,why they give choice? and everynight repeat.

if you really made up your mind to go there,then we'll let you go.
  dont say it again if you are lying me.

I ALREADY MADE UP MY MIND!

i dont want to go form6 ,i DONT WANT IT!

STOP talking me about form6 anymore,i hate it!

why they never respect my decision?just because i will change it when you tell me reason?

if dont want to let me go,dont give me choice,dont speak me with good words,...
dont ever tell me if i want to go anywhere and you will let me go..

i know where i want to go now..but all of you just asking to me change again?

or want to me think it again and again when i already made up my mind?

keep on asking me think about form 6,the benefit and everything
actually just dont want to let me go .
ask me think about is actually Want me to go there.

my parents respect me giving me the choice but indirectly ..you forcing me to go.

i really tired of thinking this .
really,please.
i am tired.

Speechless

this time,i am really speechless.

finally,i made up my mind to utar. and suddenly...

my daddy told me,maybe our family need to slow down our expenses

i know really well,how high we could expend in a night,or a week.

now i'm going to utar,if we still continue this
it will be a hard time to all of us.

if this decision bring hard time to my family
i would let it pass by without hesitated.

i couldnt enjoy and study there,and my family are save up everything just for me to study.

it doesnt mean i must study there,just..if i have the choice i will choose there.

living cost in kampar lower than in penang.i believe.

so now,i am really sorry to my mous,jiawen and xinning
if i couldn't make it.

when daddy tell i must get pass everything and get ptptn , all i can do is just telling daddy
 i will try my best but i cant give you a guaranty.

it cost money whenever i failed in a subjects.

seriously,i want to go there badly.

form6 gave me a bad impression.
i am still going to private ,after i got my form6. isn't?
then why i am wasting my time there..

it's really hard to get government university.if i got enough luck.
 i m not going to be a teacher.so if i got that something about teaching,
i probably would decline it on the spot!

so at the end ,i am still going private.


i really hope,everything will be fine and smooth.
i want to be a part of utar student.
but if situation unsuitable, i will go form 6 ..:)

 

Visited Utar Kampar

we woke up 5am in the morning ,and straight head to kampar.
it's really tiring.
feel so thankful and touched ,to parents.
it's really hard to find a day have good rest but because of i am going there and they have to woke up 5am
drive for almost 3 hours .
 
actually after we visited Utar,Westlake House,Ktar and MCDonald.
we were going to visit that..teluk intan. it's a historical places,very famous i think
and i never seen beforee,it's quite excited bbut unfortunately it's 50KM from kampar to go
we just turned back and thinking maybe  next time.( i know that next time will be VERY long time)

finally my parents brought me to kampar and visit that University that i would study there soon
actually is still pending,they trying their best to convince me further it at Penang.

cause Tunku Abdul Rahman College are even famous than University.and nearer
 

just i really prefer kampar,even though is really far to  get back my home
but there is a place for students.unlike penang,mix up everyone together
and their would get rob anytime .
the guard house is just for the sake of got a guard there
they dont ask where you from,or what you going do here.

Utar is really much better,it's like a town for student .
everywhere student,McD full with studentss.
my daddy become the oldest inside that McDonald.

i really love the environment there

A real university lifestyle



i want to study there.

if tomorrow is the last day,and where will i choose?
of course kampar,but if it is not..then maybe penang..

but seriously the environment,the accommodation..kampar 1st!

if the first sight see those houses,and dont feeling well
then better dont stay there,cause i going stay for 4 years
GOSH!,how i going live in the place that i feeling so..Not well

parents always ask me to think about 4 years dont only think how fun it would be at kampar either penang
i really think about it.

....
they asked me to make up my mind,and they will just accept it.
but when i told them my decision they started convince.

....

bloody fish

hey don't get me wrong!

I'm not scolding bad words

its a real bloody fish.

it makes me want to throw out ,how horrible it is.ahem maybe just to me...

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smile

i just bought this book in popular,and i really love it

it say..smiling is like a power to bring you getover ths hardship.

seriously i dont know it is true or not ...

just,now i'm learning to smile it whenever i met anyproblem.

and i remember a sentence very good in the book.

if you think about problems may come to you then it really do.
just dont think about it. it wont come towards to you.

smile may change your thinking when you're moody,
just smile even you are upset.

always remember smile and be positive

so....

SMILE
:)

Doubt AGAIN

i really dont understand myself right now
i always doubt things i cant make decision at all

i dont even know what is the emotion i should have it right now

i just got the latest news about the national service
and i am in 3rd batch.

maybe this is fate,but i just dont know..
should i happy or disappointed that i am not in 2nd batch..

anyway,i have to accept it.
just..this is once in our life time,i just dont want to miss it.

we cant get this kind of life outside there.maybe it may be difficult time but once get over it 
then theres nothing would stop you anymore.

i told myself,once step into this way,i will never stop it or turn back.
i told it same to my mom,and she tell me that is so wrong
perception .

she asked me,what if i really got a hard time in there and it's half way ,how am i going get over it?
i never think like this before.

i just know i must get over it.cause i will never turn back even it's a really difficult time.

but never think about how difficult time it would be..
 if i can get over it,then go ahead,get the best result i could.

if i cant ,then better stay here until i can get over the hardest time..

hmm..what should i do now..?..

i doubt many things actually,even the room

i really so hard to decide a thing,even a small thing

last time i doubt because of choosing private college or university
now i get over it,and doubt about the rooms.

i prefer single room.i got my privacy ,freedom even my sleep time.
i really cant imagine if i got a roommates that its early bird
omg just kill me. i cant go to bed so early..

sometimes maybe it's early to me but it's sooo late to others.

i think better get single room now.hoping dont change my mind again.
i really tired with it.

problem between us

i do believe times can make our friendship blow up
i just wish we could get it over.

times make us misunderstand each other ,and build up a wall between it.
cause we doubt.we never meet since we out of this school.

we got our jobs to do,we cant get out anytime as we like anymore
the day we get off different.

i dont blame anyone.really.
i dont want to have a fight .

just we need to tell the truth.

we used to play truth or dare to get know recently how we think about each other
but now,no meet,no truth or dare,dont know what thinking at all right now.

remember our craziest dare? that is really crazy,and how closed we were...

eat the nasi lemak inside the class while teacher were infront .
play chess,when teacher asked us to study ourselves.

secret birthday party.

i remembered the six rules.even we complained about no freedom
but we didnt even broke it.

now did they broke?
i dont know.

we tell the truth to each other.no lies.
let make it this time too okay?

calm down and speak.
when we having a quarrel,that means we getting more far to each other

anger controlled our mind.just calm down.

dont speak easily,when you are in a mad.you might hurt the person you care.

we will getover it right?i believe.
it just ...misunderstand...

no only one people cause this,it's all our fault to make this happened in us.

by the way,i will apologize first.if i did anything wrong.

i really appreciate this friendship.i dont want to broke it.

Mous<3

ouch,it's hurt

did i put on effort to get As in my SPM? yes,i really did

i tried my best,memorize all those words,sentences

and i just got  B.

kinda disappointed and feel guilty to teacher who taught me.
but i really hate it compare with other people.

hey,i am sandy tan.
i am myself,i am not born be like anyone of them
dont take meand compare it.

she get A? that's her problem.
not even a lil bits of mine

i hate it.

who dont want to get A in all subjects?
and especially the subject you like.

you never see how much effort i put into it and just say it like
i didnt even try?

if you didn't saw it,just shut up your mouth.

if you saw it,then why you compare it?you should know how much i want to get A in this subject.

i looks nothing,because i accept it this is what should i get.

dont simply judge me.

time to choose the right way

before i got my result,all i wish just can get into a college
but after i got it,it's more complicated than i think

i dont know what subject should i take
ii dont know what subject i am really interested

now everything just I Dont Know.

all i know is just i will get into business studies

i need someone to give me advise ,instead of keep on asking about my opinion

form 6??? LCCI?? private college??

now i dont even have a time to think about it

i scared of account,it's lots of numbers

someone told me,i am more suitable and better in business management
this really made me doubt

LCCI is a global accepted qualification
and Diploma in accounting?
omg,what it is!
my sister told me,LCCi means you are going to be accountant
it's different with diploma.
if after diploma when we going to degree ,we have to choose our specified subject.
yeah,i want to specified in taxation

this is what i want,i know it well

then what about form 6? i really scare failed in my STPM and i going to use my SPM result
get into private college ,and just DIPLOMA in accounting,instead of degree.
i dont want to waste it half and a year inside a college

form 6 is same like foundation
form 6 just a path to government university
it's really okay with it if i can get into government university but ..what if i cant?

this most important time now,i need advise.
going back to school and ask for teacher advise
hope can help me out.

i just keep on applying those private college..

unbelievable

i am just soo high right now

i dont wish to get straight A's or even a A

just passed all,and get 5 credits to apply college

i keep on praying to gods please just let me get 5 credits
10am sharp at school waiting in the hall

our cutest principal gave us a speech that SPM 2011 broke the record again
it's feeling so good

when i get my result..omg
i shouted,infront of my teacher and my friends
almost cry,really cant believe it

i never think about to get A ,i swear
just want to pass it all subjects and get 5 credits
that is really enough for myself

really satisfied with this result
i tried my best,even maybe it's just average result for others
but i am just so happy with it!

first time wake up in the morning 6am
i try to take a nap again and it's just 7am

i really feel why the time become soo slow,like a tortoise
 

finally i can have a good night sleep :P

skyping with you,Yew ivy

hee,we chatting through skype
and the first time we broke our records
it's 2 hours 20 minutes and 4 seconds

she not only broke our records and also my records
the longest time ever i've been talk in skype

it's really excited when we found out the time is going 2 hours
actually we just aim for 2 hours
while we talking,we forgot about the times

we talk everything,just like every best friend do
about work,salary (for everyone favourite question)
about work problem,peoples attitude,we even share lots of quotes
there are good but when those quotes we read sounds funny
at last we finally talk about our future way

what course i am going taking and what about you,
whaat is the difference between this and that?
we just talk,and everything

we know each other for over 4 years,right?err

we are not closed like ..twins
we just normal but we still care about each other

she got her friend to join ,same goes with mine
but sometimes we still gather,and heart talk :P

curiouss

9 march 2012 changmin's grandma dead
14 march 2012 yuchun's daddy dead

and jaejoong's mother stayed in hospital
what's going on this month..
it's feel like sooo unlucky this month

mostly korean stars they went to yuchun's father funeral
to show their condolence
i very curious about..

will currently tvxq going?
i mean changmin and yunho,i guess even they want to attend it but
SM wont let them go..

i wish so.
what are their feeling right now?
theres no way to say that they didnt know about it

JYJ just finished their concert at chile and peru
yuchun cried and fever

what is yunho and changmin thinking right now?

28th march,i heard some rumours about something JYJ or TVXQ giving cassiopeia surprise?

is it means that they are will meet up after finished the contract with SM?
i believe in tvxq will same like shinhwa

sanda?sandy+panda

tonight..
just i dont want to sleep
i also dont know the reason  

after wait IVY for 3 hours
just because of her after 10pm,i started wait her 9pm
i talked to my friends in skype around 1 hours
and keep on waiting for her ONLY!

i promise myself next time she tell me again after 10pm
dont wait anymore,just online 12am
everything ok!

hoping everything is okay tomorrow

only work half day until 1pm
then straight to alor star mall,for movies!
John Carter
this is the first movie ever since i work.
quite excited but headache
what should i wear?

i like to wear casual,just normal T,and jeans

i want to drive there,and daddy sit beside me
i am not so sure whether he is ok or not

i didnt touch that car for looonggg time agoo
everytime i telling daddy i going drive today after this & that
and then later.. sure.. raining..

i miss it soo much but i scared scold by daddy again
i dont know how to stop it..:(

EXO-K / EXO-M

刚刚去观看了SM 的新男子团体
确实是很不错的,但就是怪怪的
我想是偏见吧,自从东家分开后超级讨厌SM

我多么希望他们并不是SM旗下的歌手,而是别的公司
看到bigbang,这么久了并没有发生什么事 真的希望他们是同一家的
如果真的是那样,他们就不会分开了不是吗?..

TVXQ,最棒
就算出现再多的男子团体,总是感觉怪怪的

他们的歌是不错,但就是缺少了感觉
就算有男子团体的歌很好听,但就是不能喜欢上他们
最多只能喜欢那首歌,而不是那个团体

快疯了,尤其是看到在中在那个记者会上第一次那么EMO..
我找不到抽风的在中了,只看到被外界压力压得很累的在中

我想东方神起会像神话一样,制造了神话
他们会回归的,只要他们在一起就可以了

我去听了EXO-K 和　EXO-M 的 history
真的很不错,可是分不清楚他们是..一个团的还是不一样的?

还有我最近很喜欢这首歌
bigbang - tell me goodbye 和blue
越来越喜欢听.尤其是明白他们的歌词后..

煎熬-李佳薇

早  知  道  　 你 只  是  飞  鸟
拥   抱  後  　 手   中    只  剩    下  　 羽 毛
当   初  你 又  何 必 浪   费
那 麽 多  咖 啡  和 玫  瑰  　 来  打 扰


我 想   要  　 安 静   的 思 考
天   平   上    　 让   爱 恨  不 再  　 动   摇
一 想    你 就  平   衡   不 了
我 关   灯   还  是  关   不 掉   　 这  风   暴
心  一 跳   　 爱 就  开  始  煎   熬
每  一 分  　 每  一 秒
火  在  烧   　 烧   成    灰  有  多  好
叫   思 念   　 不 要  吵
我 相    信  我 已 经   快   要
快   要  把 你 忘   掉
跟  寂 寞 　 　 再  和 好
得 不 到  　 也 不 要  乞 讨
怎  麽 做  　 不 需 要  别  人
转    告  　 在  陷   的 太  深   的 海  底
我 也 只  剩    下  我 自 己   能   依 靠


心  一 跳   　 爱 就  开  始  煎   熬
每  一 分  　 每  一 秒
火  在  烧   　 烧   成    灰  有  多  好
叫   思 念   　 不 要  吵
我 相    信  我 已 经   快   要
快   要  把 你 忘   掉
跟  寂 寞 　 再  和 好


我 相    信  我 已 经   快   要
是  真   的 我 快   要
快   要  可 以 微  笑
去 面   对  　 下  一 个 　 拥   抱



现在超级爱这首歌,谢谢某某介绍
哈哈

make up

i think i need to learn how make upp
it;s the time now..

i want to make up too
but i dont know at all
no technique..

i feel my heart pain when i am going buy those make up stuff
such a waste for me..><

what should i do?

i have a small eyes,given by god.i proud with it
even the dust cant get into my eyes

but now i want to change it.
what is the things i should buy? for the new learner...

ghost adventure

did you guys watch ghost adventure every wednesday 8pm ntv7
oh my god,zak bagan is soo cool

he never believe in ghost,so he went to almost every haunted places
just to capture those thingss

sometimes,we can hear they are saying somethings clearly
or they used to take somethings hit zak bagans or nick or aaron

they trying to communicate with the ghost,by using recorder

he is so cool,brave.


they went to haunted places at night,and lock themselves inside that haunted house

skypeeeee

the first time skype with japanese friend -- Risa

oh my god,i am so shyy...
haha,very nervous and i have no idea what to say
quite..awkward 

i am trying to speak in japanese but i just realise i forgot everything ..
i just keep on..bokuwa...bokuwa.. and i only remember korean...

i am going to learn japanese ! i am serious

really very happy skype with her
even though  we just microphone to talking
ah,i wish to webcam with her

she is a good friend =)
she taught me a little bit in japanese heehee
i think we have a good time right?haha we talk for almost 40 minsss
she is suchh a cutee girl
kawaiii komudachi,i think?haha :P



and soon we going to meet
march 15 i think,,

if she can stay my house,that is perfect!
we can watch tohoshinki together

i asking my parents to allow me go japan find them,they doubt..
it's true ,first time i am going to other country and i am alone
without parents beside me.TT

i really hope they will allow me go osaka.

i really scare skype ,its really shy when going to speak or open the webcam
like..dont know what to say .. and i can feel my face it's hot!

oh my god..><

我想做的事情..

想做的事情，不能只是一直想想而已不是么?(frm : 我离成人还很远)


以“我告诉你，你没试过所以不知道”这样的话开始，
“所以，你还是别去做了。”这样的话结束的“谈话”。
所有的事都有利弊两面，
所有的事情分明都有紧要关头，
有难过的坎， 我并不是不知道这些，
“因为我以前这么做过才知道的，所以你还是别去做了。”
甚至，有的时候自己正在做那件事情，
或是已经做了那件事情现在也过得好好地，
“明摆着只会让你辛苦的。我知道的，所以你还是别去做了。”
我也知道。 也许这并不是件好到值得我付出那么多的事。
也许我会失败。 也许以后会更辛苦。
但即使是这样，我也要自己去试一试，不是么？
失败也好，成功也好， 如果是我想要的东西，
就算做了之后会后悔，也要自己去尝试一下不是么？

我想试试才去做的。 即使以后会听到“看吧，我就说嘛。”
这样的话也没有关系，
因为我想做的事情，如果一直都只有空想而不去尝试的话，
“我，害怕这样生活下去，也许会死呢。”

读了这篇..真的好想去试一试实现我想要的东西.
我想当游戏设计师,但因为旁人的意见而退缩了..
因为我害怕..

或许真的应该去试一试,闯一闯...

grandpa 80s birthday

 my super handsome grandpa was born on 25 February 1931

i am not so sure about the year he was born

this years  he reached 80
he even look younger than his 60s friends~!
he is strong,and his eyes is better than all of his grandchildren.
he dont even wear spec but his grandchildren and children all wearing spectacles.some wear lens

oh my god,i am so curious how my grandpa body can be so strong?
he only drink hot chinese tea and not ice tea
and and and, he's so cool in eating spicy
god,he just ate the chilies like biscuit or else.scaryy.

my parents,their brothers sisters decided to made a party for his 80s birthday

it's very touched when grandpa sister attend his birthday,eventhough she is really hard to walk :(
she told her,she still will attend no matter how far she gonna walk,because this is her brother birthday.
really touching

this is the photo when he was young ,with his children at thailand i think.not so sure about it

this is the photo that in his birthday.

we celebrated at star city hotel,alor star. we got a good service from the waiter.
they are friendly.:)



grandpa,happy birthdayy!
heehee,hope we have the chance to celebrated again next 5 or 10 years!
祝你身体健康.长命百岁<3
lovee you grandpa!

boringg lifee

it's so boring here

everyday gotta get up before 9am.

sleep after 1am

restless.

everyday come to office

what am i doing?..

open wifi,then online

or watching pps

what else things i can do?

nothing!

i bought lot DVDs here,to watch

no exercise at all but i wonder why i will hungry when it's lunch time?

i wish to work with walking around ,here and there..

instead of sitting infront of computer and stick at the chair

the saddest things is i am getting fatter and fatter 

because i cant sweat!

stay inside the office all day long

with air conditioner.

it must be the air conditioner problem if i can sweat 

o>.<o

i fall in love with play the hu la hoop

just because i wanted to on diet soo much !.

something changed?

recently just feeling soo weird with myself 

and our MOUS 

maybe we got work now and it's kinda hard to hang out together.

i wanted to hang out with mouss soo muchh

but when i am in that situation,i became quiet.

what's wrong with me?!

i got a lot of things want share with them,but when i see them
i dont know what to say..

even just we chat in facebook,i became so sensitive

 o>_<o

i dont want to be like that with my MOUS


 

"blur blur" with myself

i feel i am so different with last time?
yea,getting fatter and fatter
hmm,that's just appearance.

last time i love to hang out with friends no matter girls or boys
but now,i want to close myself in my room.dont even want to get out from it.
i would hang out with girls,but i feel something diferent when i heard guys are going too.i would suddenly change my mood and feeling not well to hanging out with.

oh my god!

maybe just because work and makes me feel tiring ?
i hope it is really like that

i'm so so so lazy to updated my blog,
i feel nothing to write.nothing to share.


everything just so different.

i lost myself

please please please

dont ask me what course i am going to take in college
and..am i taking form 6?i still dont know ,so please.

i lost myself,i dont know what course should i take
i dont know which one is suitable for me

i only know maybe IT,maybe Accountancy or business.
seriously i never think about business,but someone advise me to take it
because she said i am very suitable in business
this made me getting deeper and deeper losing myself

i checked IT course,want to be software engineering
the forum about IT course,they keep on asked the young generation dont take it
espacially girl.it just have a good name actually just a mechanical.
we have no times to do everything,and it's on call.
whenever problem come out,we must solve it on the spot
at same time,it means,...we are not 8am-4pm.we are 24hours

i like play games,a like all the things about technology
but it doesn;t means i am suitable to take IT

i really dont know where's my way
i wish to have the robot like doraemon,at least i know which is my future

now,i think i will choose accountancy
i remember when i get into form4.
i wants to be accountancy badly.but when i get in form5,i forgot about it.

i think this is my final decision.
i just want to make the best way for myself.

learning be inventory clerk just to get some experience.
maybe i will choose business course,and this might help me.

You Know Yun Ho

-被否定不要紧，被恶意的诅咒也不要紧.
  摔倒了，我们再爬起来。在这个世界上， 除了性命，没有其余任何东西 能凌驾于梦想之    上。 一步一步走来，既然哭过、笑过、 放弃过、也失败过， 却依旧很努力地咬牙支撑着 着 要做到最好 那么，就请继续顽强的走下去。

-你知道吗？ 不是因为世界上只有你才会爱你的， 而是因为爱你， 世界上才只有你的。


-我希望我们东方神起无论遇到多大的困难都可以齐心去克服，只有我们五个人在一起才是最幸福的

希望像step by step的题目一样，能一步一个脚印的创造一个更美好的一年

 就算再困难也要微笑，但当你有勇气面对的时候，一切都会渐渐好起来

 我喜欢努力两个字 ，我不喜欢别人说我变了。

我们五个人，不管是现在还是以后，又或是十年之后，我们五人仍会以东方神起的名字唱歌给大家听，我们只有一条路而已，到死为止都会奔跑在这条路上。

Work as clerk

this is my first job work as inventory clerk

it's so complicated,i lack of experience which this company needs

the submission the end of month,whole company get crazy with my submission

keep on calling my phone,asking this and that

i really felt so bad,when everytime they called me.

it's so sorry

i guess i will not make the same mistake on next month

i tried my best

i just realise how tired is my parents,i dont understand it 

but since i start work,i know exactly what they feel

i'm just sitting inside the office and do nothing

but when i come back home,gosh,it's tired

i wish everything would do it for me ,i'm really tired move ..

i totally forgot my blog,since the submission the end of month.

maybe it's stress but i;m not sure about it.

everyday i remind myself check this and that to make sure everything is correct

1st experience ,never ever exchange your stock near end of month

cause they have no time to check how much you returned your stock and prepared new stock for you.

gotta wait for almost 2 weeks

2nd experience,dont feel shy when you dont know how to do the submission,just call them up ask for the detail.dont feel you are disturbing them.

 

 

my jobs is just waiting members come buy product with me,

other time i can do whatever i like,so i got lots of time to online

watch movie,MV everything.

it is so enjoyy.

almost everyday i watching PPs,and pause it for 10 mins then continue

 

their members buy products once,so i dont have to stop my pps too long.

unless the submission take my time.

 

.............this is what i know about this jobs.......

那个才是我的世界

金在中-那个才是我的世界 

真是太不懂这世界 你对我说 
些许忧虑的眼神 几许抱歉的笑 
是啊 这世界也许我真的不懂 
才这样独自去流浪的吧 
可是 不曾后悔 
每个有泪有笑的梦 
我的世界只有那些 
可是 不曾后悔 
每个努力寻求的梦 
我的世界只有那些 那就是我的世界 

真是太不懂这世界 
我也对你说 
些许忧虑的眼神 几许抱歉的笑 
是啊 这世界也许我真的不懂 
才那样一个人还在流浪吧 
可是 不曾后悔 每个辛勤耕耘的梦 
我的世界只有那些 
可是 不曾后悔 每个努力寻求的梦 
我的世界只有那些 那就是我的世界 

就让我们远走高飞吧 去找寻梦想 
去找属于自己的那个世界吧 
那就是我的世界

mirotic concert jaejoong solo

当在中唱着歌时,出现了歌词

看着歌词里的意思..

他的这首歌仿佛想要告诉某人的,

这首歌也让人有着..想要嚎啕大哭的感觉

在中在这首歌里的歌声是很痛心的嘶吼

跟平时的他声音完完全全的不一样

说真的这首歌真的打中了我心

 每个人对这个世界多多少少是不太懂的 

因为发生很多与自己预想不到实情实在是太多了 

不只是自己身边的事情 

远在韩国都会发生跟自己预期不一样的实情 

是因为他们的歌声感动了我们 

也让我们跟他们五只有了交集 

我们只是为了捍卫自己喜欢的歌手不要解散的心情罢了

這個世界  也許真的有太多太多的我們不懂的事情

 可是   金在中不曾後悔過

他要有个有泪有笑的梦 所以他要独自流浪去寻找 

就好像当初他离开他的家 就算全家人都反对 

独自来首尔要唱歌那样的心情 很辛苦的打工赚钱没有钱 

他还是要唱歌给全世界听 那样的心,

他从没有变过 现在

只能用抱歉的微笑来跟我们说 对不起,

我没有达到你们所要的期望

 因为我世界就只有这样 

也许我正走在最孤独的路上

但是那个才是我的世界

在中是很爱独自奋斗,坚强的面对种种困难的过程

这是他的成长方式

他真的让人又爱又恨啊,

他有着很多面,他喜欢把他心情放进歌里

那时他发泄的方法吧.

first job

everyone thought i was just joking that i worked with my dad

as a clerk

actually i work for K-link

it's something like health care

god,the first time i learn something without writing 

just listen

i didnt do some notes 

now the only things i can do is calling the main office 

and ask for help

im so shy to talk with them

my dad taught me call people like auntie and uncle

now he asked me not to be like that

because i am work right now,i cant call them like that

i guess no ones will like it?

it's kinda hard for starting,i have to call daddy friends' names

oh my god.it's like..very rude for me

i think daddy understand my situation

he kept on telling me treat them as i treat my friends

i think that's work 

at least there have no tension for me anymore

but quite nervous 

my salary is Rm600 per month
im giving my parents rm100,and babysitter rm100
it's going to be my routine
now is just start only,next time
i would give them higher,i swear!
it's very weird when you are giving your parents money and it just rm 100

i'm going to save up the leftover!

我是狮子宝宝

2012 我的追梦计划！

“梦想”对狮子宝宝来说，就像是精神上的信仰一样。他们热爱它、喜欢追寻它……但也经 常更换它。尽管狮子宝宝每次决定追梦时，怀着的决 心都是十足真金、绝不搀假；但是作为天生生活在聚光灯下的族群，假如在行动过程中缺了外界的认同甚至关注，他们可能会渐渐动摇并自我怀疑，以至于最后直接 来个自我否定，连之前的信仰都不要了！
急救丹：说服自己相信这句话——真正的王者，是无须靠他人评判来证明自己存在的意义滴！

found it!

finally i found the reason why i admire them sooo soo soo much

just because they have the real talent,they are different with those kind of idol singers that you randomly grab that debut with only pretty faces 

they don't need hot dance,sexy movement to attract the crowd

because they put their emotion and feeling inside the songs

this is it!

jaejoong is my favourite

they looks like perfect man in the world,but actually they aren't

obviously jaejoong just looks so man,he is so clumsy

just find out at youtube,search clumsy jaejoong

then you'll know how much clumsy he is.