say goodbye to may

goodbyyeee May!
and heello june

i remember i came here 18th may
now it's june already
so fast uh,i miss my home

a little bit homesick here
i'm kinda tired of everyday eating those..delivery
but i'm still like to cycling around

dont ask my hobby after i came here,
all my answer just, i will cycling every 6pm if i can.

may of 2012,i left my home,my family,my puppies,
urgh,i miss them so much.
getting an independant ..life after all.
>.<!
i almost eveyrday went bicycle shop in may.
i just hoping i will not visit the shop frequently in june.

31st may ,the weather in kampar it's really unpredictable
it's sunny afternoon and suddenly thunder storm
i finished my class 1pm but i going hostel 4pm
and that time it started to rain.

jiawen kinda unlucky ,parked at the chaining zone
and she got fined rm5,but xin ning paid for her first.
cause she got her class end 6pm
our campus save and security department closed 5:30pm
poor little jiawen.

we like having a cup of tea inside the office while waiting the rain stop

seriously,i hate my bicycle
it likes to come out some..out of my expectation accident

if i take all the money of maintainance,i think i can buy a new bicycle

almost spent all my money

before 10th of june ,i have to pay my rental first
or not,they going have a call to my parents already
oh my god!

it's very lol.
until now,i dont know how much should i take it as my cash and others save in the card.
i going ask my parents later.



woolala, actually my parents coming today but suddenly cancelled
cause closing date.*arghh..i forgot already!

by the way,at least my babysitter coming over here to visit me
very excited. XD
my mom gave those things that she's going give me to jiawen's mother
cause...jiawen have a very blessful family.
her family coming over her visit her again,..

 anyway,my parents coming next week! XD

oh yeah,june.
going to our 2nd week already
omg,tutorial class start next week!
i dont want it >.<
i have to go back at 6pm everyday!.
except friday 11am

dont envy me,because of friday i can go back earlier without any tutorial after 11am.
 :P

A little bit unluckkyy day

it's really really a little bit unlucky for me today

i had my class at 8am and my bicycle having some problem on the half way going campus
i'm forced to walk to zone D park my bicycle and walk to class
gosh,i dont know why my bicycle have so much problem
maybe it just too long never ride it like now?..
i think so

early in the morning and i already sweat like under the hot sun in 12pm
entering the class,so damn cold.
i just keep on wear my jacket and take off because behind my shirt was wet

i sent lot Sos,to my friends,senior
hoping someone end their class 10am like me.but they ended 12pm.

my mom just called my cousin and actually,i dont even recognize him anymore
we dont even talk.how i gonna know how is he looks like.


i dont know where am i,and finally i met him there
he just called up his friend that passer by to help
his friend fixed already but after he walked away,the bicycle still cant ride
maybe my bicycle dont like me uh,and dont want me to ride it .

actually he got his class 10am but he help me until 10:30am,his friend brought me back hostel ,and my bicycle stay at the zone D.
he brought to repair it and return me around evening.

feel really thankful to him actually,cause we just cousin and not so close
lucky he's there,or not i'm going walk through tar college again then to the bicycle shop again

almost a week,i appear at the bicycle shop.>.<

i just hope,bicycle please dont so problem anymore ,i am rush to school everyday
i dont want to call anybody else at same problem again.

by the way,my cousin riding the motorcycle while bring together my bicycle
and he fell down .
really really felt so sorry to him,>.<

anyway,wednesday again pasar malam!oh yeah~
we  going there evening,and we dont bring umbrella
all of us were so confident that it wont rain tonight
suddenly lighting,..then some drops of rain
gods,everyone running like hell,while our hand are full with the food
and the first time i felt lucky i stayin in 1412
cause it's quite near to pasar malam even new town

we just get a little bit wet,kinda fun
so exciting.
i never experience this before,now i know already
everytime going to pasar malam
bring along umbrella,just ignored who laughing at you sunny day and bring umbrella
cause in kampar,you couldnt know when is raining at all

so full having the japanese vegetable something
very delicious,and maybe healthy
cause all it's vegetable only

 
huuu..just please tomorrow dont happen the same thing again.>><!

money flewww~

i just found out after i came kampar,i always updated my blog
i have lots of thing to write down here

i miss my family,
i am in kampar a week now
slowly will turn out to a month,yearsss

i just realised i was so blissful when i'm with family together
especially went to shopping mall
of course,this is not the main point with family
just i realised this when i'm in tesco alone

when i'm with my family
i just turn here and there,look at anything i want

just take without hesitated,i never ever let junk food walkthrough me
 or go out have a dinner
never think about what is the price ,is it okay or else

but now,i cant do like that anymore
i went tesco and look at those junk that i love
and i walk away
i just feel maybe i shouldnt waste so much money on those food that cant fill my stomach,instead.

at the end,i just empty hand going back my hostel with my sister's friend
yuxiu,and her friends

the first time i went mcD today,and having breakfast there
i forgot today was the weekend,the price is much higher than week day
i almost spend all my badjet just for the breakfast

the breakfast is like nothing for me anymore after i walk back with bicycle from campus to hostel again.
i just skipped my lunch cause the breakfast was too expensive for meeee alone


argh..my money flew away....

你以为东方神起..

F：百度转发

我不知道是不是大部分人都和我有一样的经历
“你的屏幕上是东方神起吗？”
“是啊，没错。”
“啊，你也哈韩啊！我也是！”
“不，没有，我不哈韩，我只喜欢东方神起。”
“噢噢噢，我以前也喜欢过东方神起，现在喜欢XXXXX.”
“呵呵。”
突然就没有了继续对话的欲望，那么东方神起对于你来说到底算什么呢？

 东方神起对于整个韩国乐坛又算什么？
我不喜欢韩饭的很重要一点就是她们太善变，新团轮流出，然后你突然发现你关注很久一个NAVER
BLOG上不再出现东方神起的身影而变成了男朋友或者血型团无限团。
你以为东方神起是什么。
东方神起绝对不是韩流乐坛一闪而过瞬间耀眼却永久沉沦的流星。
东方神起是闪耀在北方天空千年的美丽星座。

 我的郑允浩，隐忍而真诚，他是会对警方说放过向他投毒的孩子因为想到了自己的妹妹的人。
我的金在中，坚强而坦率，他是明知道转着眼珠不好看却依然想努力看清楚台下每一个歌迷的人。
我的朴有天，多情而温暖，他是会因为感动哭得像个孩子却在最失落的时候忍着眼泪安慰弟弟的人。
我的金俊秀，单纯而刻苦，他是哪怕经历七年练习生生涯依然带着自己的梦想坚定地走下去的人。
我的沈昌珉，谦虚而成熟，他是会告诉饭们要努力做好自己的本职读书工作然后再喜欢自己的人。
所以你尽可以发挥一切功力来挖苦东方神起的现状。
所以你尽可以动用一切权利来抹杀东方神起的努力。
所以你尽可以穷极一切心思来利用东方神起的地位。
可东方神起始终都在那里，站在这样一个高度，你仰望，却永不企及

 在日本开一场拼盘，却阻止BIGEAST举起红色荧光棒。
在韩国卖一张专辑，却阻止他们站上舞台为自己打歌。
在日本举行颁奖礼，却连入围资格都不给东方神起。
在韩国当形象大使，却在达到目的之后被一脚踢开。
而这就是你们对待自己的真真正正的招牌的态度。
东方神起是前辈，不是绊脚石。
东方神起是前辈，不是垫脚石。
若你不能成功，不是东方神起挡了你的道。
若你想成功，不是东方神起有义务帮你。
他们在日本摸爬滚打的时候你在哪里？你在韩国当你的韩流star亚洲天团。
他们被日语逼到给乌鸦打电话的时候你在哪里？
你在韩国泡吧喝酒其乐无穷。
他们站在学校礼堂拿着有线麦唱歌的时候你在哪里？
你在韩国开con赚钱不亦乐
 而如今他们替你们打开了日本市场让排外的日本人接受了韩流却被你们一脚踢开。
我的爱豆辛辛苦苦爬上霓虹乐坛的巅峰，不是为了给你当垫脚石的。
所以其实我万分期待阪蛋的金唱片，我只是很好奇没有东方神起的巨蛋会怎样。
我的爱豆的确现在是3+2，的确苦苦支撑，的确每一步都很艰难。
可是你别忘了我的爱豆两个人可以让拼盘变成专场。
可是你别忘了我的爱豆不能打歌宣传依然专辑脱销。
所以请问你到底在得意些什么？
你在嘲笑的是你永远达不到的高度。
你在讽刺的是你永远得不到的荣耀。
而今，东方神起五人出道8周年了。
宝剑锋自磨砺出这句话是高中作文的绝杀句而今天我又要再用一次。
这八年摸爬滚打我的爱豆经历了多少看透了多少。
八年时间把我爱豆的棱角磨平却更加锋芒毕露。
我的爱豆站在那里就是气场，这种气场并不是你搞笑一下积攒点人气就能有的。
我常常在想东方神起你快点回来，不为别的，就为给别人看一看什么才叫神之子。
并不是嘴上喊几句最高就真的天下无敌，并不是扭几下就叫舞王找几个一起唱歌就叫和声。
八周年日志被我写得这么酸也算是我的本事。
其实我叨叨这么多也就是一句话——
东方神起你别碰，因为你碰不起。
我不知道预感这种东西是不是真的存在，但是东方神起会回来的，等着吧。
无论你对他们的回归是抱着怎样的心态，等着吧。
原作者我并不知道是谁。只是怀着一样的心情，等待着东方神起回来。这种心情想和你们分享
所有期待东方神起回归的人，我们都懂，他们不会辜负我们的期待
所有嘲笑过他们、讽刺过他们、利用过他们、伤害过他们的人，你们等着。。。

ice breaking dayy

i'm in the 16 group,
when i in the group ,i just feel,gosh kill me please
my group mates they look..kinda shy to everyone?
i feel like that,and if there is a prize about the most quiet,
i think we will get it

when choosing leader,we just look at each other
and make no sound at all
when choosing volunteer same too

starting la,i think

when we started the games,our groupmate slowly talk to each other
make some friends and else

i thought all boys are like to make noisy around
maybe in kampar not like that.
but in alor star almost every camp,i attended they do make lots of noise
until the helper will ask to be quiet a little bit

i am totally different groups with my cha mou
xin ning jia wen together without me
how jealoussss am i!!

it quite good also not so bad
just change mind thinking :P

i met some new friends too,
i like talk to kelly,she's active person
and sporting i think..

just running here and there
and we got running man too!
i just run and get caught,how stupid me

there are some international student i think,aww
i wish to be friend with them actually
but i dont know how to start and so shyyyy

when i just decide want to talk to them,they gone
so sad,hmmm..

by the way,i got the certificate of participant
kinda excited to get that actually

i like the activities today

this is my cert..


by the way,today i was cycling all alone at the lakeside ,cause xinning and jiawen they slept and i didnt wake them up 6pm

first time ,i was cyclying there alone,and going everywhere that i like to turn
just simply turn here and turn there.

now,just 8 something but i really so sleepy dy
i didnt take a nap at the evening,i dont want to like an owl in the midnight ..

arhh..sleeppyy

boringg talk

the most boring talk,i ever met in this orientation i think
that something called mass call

they invited utar president
he got really a long long name,which i cant remmeber at all

i'm so so so glad,i'm just foundation student
just wonder why everytime we look at the scedule ,it's in herritage hall
but end up,in Block I

we just watching the video,thanks god
kinda enjoy it actually,we sleep and just do whatever we like
and they dont know about it

when they talked about history,gosh kill me
almost sleep,and..i curi curi slept jor
terjatuh somemore ...arr embarrassing

i hate it when open up the song,and i forced to slow down the volume
because even my friend can heard my song

next year,if im going proceed to degree
i swear i will never attend the orientation


those seniors sharing their experience with us when there happen some technical problem
much much better than the talks
hahaha

today faculty talk started 10am and we go back at 4pm
we were sitting at the chair and didnt move at all
listen to the briefing,
actually kinda interesting ,the talk today.

okay that is the view when we cyclying around the lake 6-7pm
kinda like there,almost everyday i will be there :P

my friend just learn bicycle,finally we can go out together with bicycle
instead of walk here and there
kinda tired actually

hu..class started 28th may
i dont what things should i bring
different class with friend,so sad.

even tutorial group too.

>.<! it's a hard time for me starting i guess..

just hope everything will be alright

tomorrow ice breaking!oh yea
finally no talks anymore

done it.haha

7:30am start dy.@.@ so early geh..

timetable

finally,i knew my timetable and it's very hurt meee
i knew my timetable through that campus tour
they really taught me a lot and more understand my new campus
it's really feel much better

i remember last time,i go in that campus
and think Gosh,this is so so so big
how i gonna walk through and know these all buildings are

and today i did it
we use our leg instead of bicycle ,walk all 11 blocks in the campus

and in the morning we chase the bus
cause it's late

waiting for the second bus,it takes time
and we need to rush for the seat

we were the first bus stop and have to stop i think 5 others stop
we just sit 3 person in 2 seat,really pity those have to stand
it's really kill me,i rather bicycle there seriously

i dont like to wait the bus while i m going and back
it's feel like i have to always rush rush rush
running here and running there
gosh,i'm not in that variety show like in korea, running man
but i do love watch that show :P

tomorrow night going for the first pasar malam in kampar kinda exciting
hehehe,and the church activity
i dont really understand about it.

by the way,because of the food in kampar is too big for our tummy
me and xin ning decided to share that food,everything share
we can save up the cost at the same time,we dont waste that food
or we eat too much

seriously i am soo worry about ..eatting too much and getting fatter and fatter
so scare when my family coming here and they said,sand..you pong jor..

gosh i will go jump that drainn!

i went to bicycle shop for 4days,and we just stay here 4 days.
we went the shop EVERYDAY
and everyday different problem,i dont want to go anymore
i waste lots of money because of my bicycle

i just knew some new friend over here,from JB,Taiping,Penang,Sp.

actually we are housemate,we love gather at first floor which is the dining infront my room

we used to get our dinner there,and chit chat this and that,almost everything
kinda like partying XD

gotta sleep now,tomorrow 7 o'clock time to wake up
so so so tired,going to run run run to bus stop again

it's really different lifestyle here with my hometown

in hometown,my transportation is the car only
and here,i have chase the bus,ride the bicycle

first day of O'week

Orientation = O week
i just learn it from my friend.it just means shortcut :P

there lots of first time actually,
first time,i wait the bus at the bus stop
first time i wait around 1 hour
gosh,i found out i kinda patient person uh.
hahaha

bus stopp in westlake

the first bus stop let me wait around 1 hours there





and then went to register,just awhile
we walked back,gosh on the half way we stop the bus
arghh leg pain arrr

just having lunch in room
i spent too much money for maintainance my bicycle
i watch my money flew away
 T.T

i admit i'm short,and i got a bicycle which i need taller just can ride !
shit,im 18.>.<!
xin ning taught me how to ride the bicycle which is taller than me
i got it but dont know how to stop.
ah so embarrassing.18 years old still need to teach to ride bicycle.

>.<!


by the way, we met our housemate and then
we  taught that friend cycling at the night gosh
and fit it 2 person in a bicycle

is kinda fun acctually,at the night we dont have any entertainment here

just watching movies then sleep

i just felt,my bed soo comfortable
and i dont want to wake up anymoreee
i want sleep sleep sleep!

my independant day!

i just moved in this hostel yesterday,18/5/12
it's really a hard time to leave my parents,and they left here around 8pm.
after my dinner.
first time,i just waving my hand to them,watching they slowly move out my sight..
i didnt cry,but almost

i have to do everything myself,no more mom,dad,sis beside me.
i miss my puppy.aww..dont know are they waiting me to come home..
i told them before i left my home..

wake up in the early morning,for me.9am
and we decided to ride bicycle to tesco.,firs time
i ride so far,almost at noon that time with xinning and jiawen
god,jiawen sunburn because of this,seriously,
felt guilty to her.
she just accompany us go,and she got sunburn but we didnt.
mou mou soorry :(

kampar weather is so damn hot
almost everytime i go out,and come back i must take a shower
and my hair is wet from inside.

even night,i dont have to put on my blanket
it just will made me even hootter

god,xinning saw my sleeping style ,and she laughed at me
i swear i want to wake up even earlier than her!!!

maybe it's the bed,enviroment ..i dont really have a good sleep yesterday.
i miss my bed,my blanket,my room.

oh yea,yesterday i watched titanic till i slept,ah so embarrassing !
housemate are with me that time.goshhh...not gonna repeat again this time'
later gooing watch again..

parents talk me several time,seems like they really worry about me..
i think i will be alright ,i think.
today just first day,i spend almost rm100 for things.
TT

不舍

我得到了自己想要的未来,自己独立的时间了,可为什么我却充满不舍
一刻都不想离开家里了..

望着自己的屋子,好像在想些东西,可是脑袋却空空的

这一天终于到了,我兴奋不起来
似乎很烦恼某些事,可是连我自己都不知道..

怎么办？我真的舍不得..
怎么会这样？..

是我自己的选择,是我自己要去别州读书
是我自己要学着独立生活

可是当要离开时,真的真的很舍不得

...

真的不会形容现在的复杂心情.

幸福· ^^

我很幸福，因为身边围绕着爱我的人..
近期来我才发觉,之前的我真的身在福中不知福
有着两对爱我的父母亲,不奇怪啦,我叫我的保姆-妈妈的
她就好像我的第二个母亲.
自从选择要去金宝后,看见他们总是为我忙进忙出
有空坐下后就会告诉我,别乱乱参人,别轻易相信人,警戒心要高一点，什么什么的
虽然嗯..有点唠叨的说，但是我感觉到的是他们对我的关怀
怎么那么迟钝到现在才发觉,还有3天..
可以享受家人在身边的..3天
突然觉得 5月18号，来得好快 好像坐rocket酱..

买了好多好多东西,衣服啊日常用品啊 一大堆
最可怕的是我差不多要搬整个家去了。
其实看着父母为我这么忙，心里真的很感动也很不舍..

其实又不是很远..近近而已啦
保姆今天特地煮了我最爱的tomato鱼XD，还有啊发糕啊，一大堆
不知道要怎样表达出来那个感动,我不知道该怎么回报
可是一定会回报的啦，我才不会那么忘恩负义

姐姐啊，平时那么厉害的骂我
头骂到脚，前骂后也骂，一直骂骂
可是因为差不多要去金宝了，以后她就独生女一样
没人跟她耍耍嘴了，吵吵架。
她告诉我她一定会想我的,对啊,我也一定会想她的
我姐很有当厨师的潜能，一整天读完书后就是好像都在研究食谱了
最好怕她做不成功,因为不成功也得吃进去
可是多数都是很好吃的
一定会想她的,每天有事没事看见我就是问我吃了没有..
如果没有就要中了。
去到那边不知道会不会想念她的食物多过她的人啊？？哈哈
没有在我肚子饿的时候,嘴里说着懒惰出去懒惰煮菜，可是手就在那边准备食材了
 想我时不要哭啊,不然我不用睡觉了

其实最舍不得的是我妈咪了,我妈咪啊可是很出名的口是心非，刀子口豆腐心
向她埋怨时她就会骂骂骂骂骂，除了骂还是骂
可是过一下就会教我看开点啦,什么什么的
最让我心疼的地方就是妈咪做事不管辛苦还是容易她从来就不会要求我们来帮她的
明明做工回来那么累了，为什么还要去逞强，不是有我们吗
女儿是来做么的..
还有就是生病时最好别靠近我妈咪，不然啊会变水桶的
一天到晚都喝水还有最可怕的是一边骂一边给水喝
她早已算好我们不敢拒绝了吧..
骂是骂，回来了还会特地煮凉茶给我们
真的害怕以后去了金宝，你做工回来还要一个人去洗屋外的地上
那个时候会想我吧？每次都很乱绕着你
妈咪最舍不得我了，不是自恋啦
是因为她很有信心的知道我开始一定很辛苦的，因为根本没独立过
凡是有第一次嘛~
而且她很怕我撑不下后还死硬撑的，就因为我告诉他
我选择了那里，就算再辛苦我不会回来，因为我要对自己的选择负责任
自从告诉她后，一直一直都在劝我别不能读了硬硬读..
妈咪啊，相信我啦，别人能的我也一定能

（有点害怕的说)..

daddy 啊,最让我担心了
我很多性格跟到他,不是好的..
都是那些..每天被姐姐说的clumsy啦，忘记这个那个啦,不然就是做东西太冲动,没头没尾。
其实我们并没有那样吧..是有一点,就那么一点啦
没头没尾也并不是完全不好的事..
重点不是在头也不是在尾,在中间嘛
抓住重点而已。
我daddy，最厉害的就是看玩笑
他的玩笑很奇特,都是奇奇怪怪的
我多数都会笑到肚子痛,而且妈咪一直说我肥就是笑太多进风膨胀的..
我家人都个自己的语言,那语言别人根本不会懂的
因为都是话中有话,每次都是weird weird 的
 daddy很少发脾气,根本就是没发过的
好像..不曾爆发的..火山
每次只要daddy在,不管什么事我们都不怕的
因为有他在，daddy总是给我们很大的安全感,不曾离去的..那个感觉
还有啊
自小他就叫我们要尊重人权,每人都要自己选择的权利
不然就是教我们一些些的法律
他最喜欢就是在半夜读报纸,因为白天太忙了没时间让他静一静的读报纸
读完报纸后，他会告诉我们最新消息,
其实我们根本不用看新闻的，有他在，新闻一大堆
知识也很广,..
 daddy，一直都很想要给我们什么都是最好的,小时候我们要什么就拿什么
根本不用多想,因为他不想我们像报纸上的被东西诱惑而被绑架什么的
其实我们并不是需要那么多物质上的东西,因为给了我们太多
会让我们不去珍惜我们所拥有的
daddy也不曾要求我们想神童那样,科科拿最好，他只要求我们平庸就好无需太好
小时候不曾补习,成绩也平平,不是太好也没太烂,可是过得很开心
他给了我们最最最美好的童年
我最爱听 他的辉煌故事听了又听,其实他不知道重点不是他的故事 而是看到他在说他的故事时他的心情, 他的语气,他的表情
他很开心当他说他的故事..他多么高兴啊..


我真的真的很幸福.
我爱你们,daddy,妈咪,姐姐，妈妈，爸爸

start packing thingss

i think i bought almost everything.except food.

i started pack my clothes , and i pick this shirt that shirt
and put into my bag,it boom out my bag

and i realize i took almost all my wadrobe clothes into my bag
gosh, should i bring so many clothes there?

i only wash once a week,means i have to prepare minimum 10 clothes?
 feeling so hard to pack things,i cant leave my tvxq album here
i might miss to watch that album

but if i bring it there,where should i put?

hmm,only the clothes i got 2 boxes dy.

i really cant imagine how many boxes will i bring to kampar on this friday

i didnt even pack my bags,shoes,and those shampoo
and and the laptop,book,ironer,hanger..


i worry i might bring too much and be like a freak at there

at the same time,i scare forgot bring something.
and i have to come back then go back again..

i heard some rumours that kampar line isn't so good as i know
i started worry now,if i cant online
how i get to know lastest news of tvxq? Pps T.T

i know sure i will miss my wireless,it is so smooth and cool.i think it will better than the line in kampar.

everyone met me,and asked me where to go.when they heard utar.
they will start advise me for must study hard there,becareful,the exam is hard to get pass...

btw it's mothers' day today,we didnt celebrate anything
and my mom went bed so early,9pm she slept...

lucky i already told her i love her before she went sleep :P

hoping i wont forgot anything to bring ...

and
happy mothers' day <3

PLKN ..

plkn started today i think..er 2nd batch and i m in the 3rd,

anyway,my best friend is in 2nd batch ,and she is going there.
*so sad,we should skyype first before you left me here,YEW IVY!

i gona miss you so so much,3 months
gosh,it so damn long.

even i tag you in facebook and you will no more reply my post anymore
cause you are in plkn having a great experience there,

argh,im just..so jealous of you are in 2nd batch..
but nevermind,i think i will attend it after school,i guess.

there no more cancell because of education.

ivy,what if i miss to see you? you muust come out in my dream!
i just hang out one time only,the bowling ....

remember when we were skyping ,and our favourite things to do??
take the picture,talks about non-sense all the time.
 or you do your things,and i doing mine. but the phone is On.

we should watch scream4 and final destination together ,because until today i never watch it!

our records,2 hours..and something bla..

come back and we broke the record again.

anyway, enjoy the life in plkn,cause you gonna miss it when you come back
 remember story me about your life there..

jiayou!!

regret didnt skype you yesterday.when i was online,you were offline.
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i wish to see you online skype leh....it will happen but its after 3 months jor...